Back in the Blogging Saddle (maybe!)

Yikes! It's been over a month.

I have to say that the first week of school was a doozy. I stayed up until 2am three mornings that week. Not enough time in the day to do all that is required of me. There wasn't time to take a breath. Hallelujah things are better. That was rough.

The beginning of the school year is always SUCH a shock to my system. Early mornings painful. New schedules make me worry I can't fit it all in. Hours of homework drama/help needed at the same time I'm trying to cook dinner or run kids around or have play dates. All at the same time. I really really need a chef and a driver. A referee would be nice too! And a drill sergeant ordering push-ups for disobedience.

And perhaps the thing that stresses me out the most every year is how to educate all the new staff about the unique needs of my child with special needs. Everything is at stake. My child's future is at stake. There is so much pressure there because my heart is so involved, I don't know all the answers, and yet I want to educate in the most clear way possible.

Russ' job has been INCREDIBLY demanding. We're grateful to have a job, but I wish I saw more joy in his life rather than stress. He deserves it. He works so hard for his fam. He's the man.

I have a new life now. Because of preschool I now have 3 times a week where I have 2 hours to myself. Well I'm never really by myself because Russ works at home.  But it still is shocking to me!!! I've had an attachment for 13 years.  I need to figure out something more fun than working on the piles of demands at home during that time, but so far it seems that is the way I roll.  I'm glad I can volunteer at school without finding a sitter for once!

I'm totally wondering about life after Ava is in 1st grade.  I ask moms all the time what it's like to have kids in school all day, and no one seems to have an answer!  I think they are still figuring it out too or something.  Some say they are busier than ever.  It is a sense of loss as our identity is wrapped up into motherhood so whole heartedly, but I think it wouldn't take too long to embrace!  Just to be obnoxious, I will be buying Dibs (the modern day form of bon bons) and sit on the couch that first day of first grade.  I'm sure that will last about 10 minutes and then I'll get back to work (or take a nap)!